Driving home from school on this dreary cold rainy evening I was comforted by the soulful sounds of Jill Scott. I must’ve heard this album hundreds of times yet today one verse stuck out and gave me an epiphany of what she could’ve possibly felt when she wrote the lyrics.
“Why do do do I,I,I,I
Feel trapped inside a box when I just couldn’t fit
Maybe I’ve been scared knowing what’s
there, In front of me maybe I been tryin to be
what they needed me to be
When I should of just been me”
I read these words and I can’t help but think how many people are trying to be something they are not? You want to be yourself but you know good and well that many people you are around probably wouldn’t really like that person or would have their opinions about your actions. You CHANGE, sometimes for better, sometimes for worst. All I know is if you want to have a good healthy relationship with anyone you change to keep that relationship healthy. In a union, you change some things that your partner may or may not like. You change to keep them happy. Sometimes people aren’t happy with the change they see because they want the “old” you to come back. But everyone knows in the beginning of any friendship you are being this polished individual. You are getting them to like and love you on your best behavior so when the REAL you emerges they already like and love you so whatev, who cares, right? I don’t know. I am just rambling but I just thought her feelings of being trapped inside of a box yet she couldn’t fit into it made me visualize a baby trying to fit inside of something small and it’s funny, except as an adult it’s uncomfortable. If we are who we really say we are in the beginning would those people in your circle still be by your side?