Others vs. Me

“People are our sunshine, our soil, our rain. When are we going to stop surviving off of people and start living for ourselves?”

– Nadia A

I wrote this quote in the middle of my notes during my Psych class this evening. We were learning about personality and I wondered when will I ever start living for myself? As long as I can remember I’ve always put someone else before me. I can’t say that is necessarily a negative trait but I don’t see much positive in it either. I allow others to “change” me for the time being. I am so wrapped up in being who they want me to be that I forget to be me. Whoever that person may be is an amazing person… before the change. That is who I need to become all the time. I do not want to be that wife and mother (one day) who starts living her life once her kids are ready for college. I am sure I wrote this in a blog post before but for some reason it sticks this time. I am a habitual thinker who is extremely observant and a genius in my own right. Who isn’t? I won’t say that my mind and the way it works is a negative trait because it is something God gave me yet how I use it… well that’s another story. I am learning and unlearning at the same time. Change can only happen if I want it to. One cannot allow another to change them if they are not ready to be changed. I want to change me and someone else may not agree with that change but the people who are supposed to be in my life will embrace the change and accept me for who I am.

This is a new season! I have a new outlook on life and what it means to truly be me and I am looking forward to tomorrow… you should too.

Nadie

People These Days….

I am sitting in my car minding my own business, catching my breath because I just had this amazing workout at the gym. I notice two women walking into the car next to me on the left but I continue adding my workouts to the MyFitness Pal application on my Droid. I proceeded to mind my own business then I was interrupted by a dink (sound that I hear when someone hits my car door). Sigh. This women who I need to pray for, notices she hit my car door, leaves the door there, doesn’t bother to inspect… nothing. It was only after I opened my car window to inspect the “damages” myself. Yet, I still didn’t say anything at all well neither did she for that matter. I thank the Lord for giving me this sense of peace because the old me would’ve said something. Not for nothing but I am always worried about someone else’s car door if I hit it accidently. I don’t get it. People these days. Sorry I’m rambling and venting.

That is all! Lol.